It’s been a long time since I thought of blogging this.

Last Thursday, it was a very stressful day for me. I had to rush to complete my project assignment which is due on Friday and so I skipped my Thursday English tutorial to salvage some time. In fact, I didn’t know how far behind from completion it was until I had to stay up till 4 am on Thursday night till Friday morning. Yet, I couldn’t complete the assignment at 4am. Only when I woke up after 4 hours of sleep could I finally finish my assignment.

On Thursday, I went to school late and tired. After my first lecture, I was feeling tensions in my body, including a stress headache. I went to buy a Ice Chocolate from the canteen during the interval. At that moment, I was feeling very exasperated. I couldn’t understand why God was putting me through this. I was trying my best, yet it was as if He didn’t want me to do my best or He didn’t appreciate my efforts put into my work. The only prayer that I could utter at that point would be “God Help!”. I couldn’t pray anything else.

Amazingly, that was when I began to see God’s hand again.

One of my classmates from the English class that I skipped spotted me and she came up to me to say ‘hi’. It was rather surprising to me as I have never ever talked to her before. She told me that I looked very tired. I admitted to my fatigue and told her about my scramble to complete my assignment. And then, she told me what I missed during class that day. In fact, that day, there were 5 Grammar Editing Exercises that were gone over in class. I completely missed the opportunities to get the correct answers for them. Yet, this monday, I was supposed to hand in my Grammar File which includes those 5 exercises. Before I could panic, she told me that she had typed out the answers during class and that she could send it to me via email.

After she left, as I was just standing around and enjoying my Ice Chocolate, I felt a unusual cool wind blowing at me. It was unusual because it was rather hot and I was perspiring all over at that point of time.

Suddenly, I was reminded of God’s love towards me once again.

I was reminded of how ‘the Lord God appointed a plant and it grew up over Jonah to be a shade over his head to deliver him from his discomfort’ from the sweltering heat (Jonah 4:6) As the Lord had appointed a plant for Jonah, for me, the appointed the cool wind. As the Lord had cared for Jonah, He cared for me. The wind was good.

I began to see God’s loving hand at that point of time, though it may seem insignificant on other days. I am certain that it is of no coincidence that those two incidents came at that point of time. God knew my predicament. He knew the struggle I was facing. And amidst that struggle, first, He sent a friend to show my kindness in my schoolwork and next, he sent the wind to cool me and relieve me of the stress I was facing.

O how the Lord cares for me, for even me! I can abide in Him and trust Him because He is a sovereign God.

Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And all that is within me, bless His holy name.
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget none of His benefits;
Who pardons all your iniquities;
Who heals all your diseases;
Who redeems your life from the pit;
Who crowns you with loving-kindness and compassion;
Who satisfies your years with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle

- Psalms 103: 1-5